Excitement for things that have yet to come

I'm preparing for my mother's birthday this month. I know she specifically wants to have a birthday cake this year, so I'm putting aside part of my budget for that. I vowed that starting this year, I will always buy my mother a birthday cake. I wasn't able to do it last year because COVID was right at its peak during this same month back then and non-essential stores - like dessert shops - were closed temporarily. Bakeries only had bread. And even if we go further back, it was either my mom was abroad or I was busy with school. We were never fond of traditional birthday cakes truth to be told. We both hate sweets and we both prefer to eat out instead. Her recent preference to cakes was probably due to Instagram and Facebook. Also bragging opportunities. As a millennial who experienced the thrill of social media likes earlier than she did, I knew that I have to give her that chance. 

Apart from that, I'm planning for us to go to our favorite local restaurant as well. COVID is already manageable in our city and establishments have been open for months with incredibly strict social distance protocols: Everything has social distancing, even while eating. People who lack either a mask or a face shield are not permitted to enter. There are sanitation procedures when you go in. There are sanitation procedures when you go out. So all is well and I'm probably more excited for her birthday to come than she is.

DRAMA SERIES

Today I finally caught up with the recent episodes of Penthouse Season 2. Surprisingly, considering this drama's wacky reputation, the plot managed to go crazier than how it was a week ago. 

• Cheon Seojin ate a fncking sim card. That's nirvana-level makjang shit right there. You won't see this serious-looking emotionally-draining silliness anywhere.

• Cheon Seojin was strangely sympathetic and pitiful in this episode. The entire show revolves around the theme of the lengths a parent will go for their child.

• Cheon Seojin x Ha Eunbyeol mother-daughter bonding time, covering up their murders edition.

• Bae Rona died BUT I suspect she's alive and still comatose somewhere. 

• Ha Yooncheol transformed into a spineless snake for the sake of his child BUT I have a gut-feeling it was him who moved comatose Rona. Others say it's Logan Lee, but my bet's on Dr. Ha.

• Shim Suryeon appeared BUT I think she's actually Shim Su-ryeon's twin and the twin's mother (having twins tends to be genetic afaik). Hence why Joo Dantae was obsessed with our original Suryeon in the first place! It's because she looks like his children's mom.

• Logan Lee contemplating life because he is stuck with the stupid Oh Yoonhee instead of his soulmate big brain Suryeon.

I can't wait for this week to end so I can have new episodes to consume.

The River Where the Moon Disappeared

I've been offline for a while. I was quite busy with work and other stuff. Today I want to talk about Actor Kim Jisoo. He is playing the male lead character, On Dal in the drama I mentioned previously. River Where the Moon Rises. Recently, he was added to the currently growing list of celebrities being accused of school violence or workplace bullying. 

Before I explain what had happened to him, for context, all of these allegations, against celebrities came out after the South Korean volleyball twins Lee Jaeyeong and Lee Dayeong were dropped from their national team when their teenage bullying was brought to the spotlight last month. 

In the view of justice --however delayed--  attained, other bullying victims were empowered and realized they finally have a voice and they can be heard. The amount of trauma caused by school violence does not end once you graduate. The mental toll will always be there, and for victims who are doing their best to move on with their lives, for them to see their former bullies having the time of their lives on TV, enjoying their fame and money, it's a cruel twist of a knife in the gut. As a result, the South Korean kpop and drama industry had their share of uncovered secrets and testimonies from numerous victims the past few weeks. Some were faked but most sound credible and the latter group is full of heartbreaking stories from school or even video evidence unearthed from years ag that showed visible signs of discomfort of the bullied party.

You wonder sometimes how these despicable bullies have gotten as far in life as they have.

One of which is actor Kim Jisoo. I wanna focus specifically on him because one, it will take forever to cover all the other suspected celebrities and two, I was just starting to like this guy! 

Personally I feel like Jisoo was hit with the worst of allegations so far. Not a pissing contest among the suspected celebrities' victims by the way, we should not negate each individual's level of trauma. But instead more on the quantity of bullying he did. He seemed to have a To Do list back then since he managed to do everything a classic teenage bully stereotype would do and more (molka and shaming male students s*xually) and his younger self wasn't shy about them either, which resulted to a lot of witnesses sharing their POVs now. From reading the insanely detail accounts, you could have sworn he was proud with what he was doing then. No effort at conscience or shame whatsoever. He was the infamous king of the campus. If there's one thing that connects his current self to his school days, it's definitely the arrogant confidence.

The main post that triggered a wave of testimonies even ended his post with:

"I don’t want an apology or restitution. It already happened, I don’t want an apology for something that's already irreversible. I don’t think it would even be sincere anyway. There’s one thing I want. Kim Jisoo. If you want to act, do it. But if you do, you need the title of school violence perpetrator right before your name."

The comments are equally interesting as well, reactions ranged from the usual photos of school records and witness accounts, to people describing how they have contacted fellow alumni and discussing how this issue has finally blown up and that they expect more people to talk. And ho boy they did. The paragraphs are long, the descriptions of the bullying were horrifying and their anger is evident.

For the record, he had already confirmed his Iljin past as of this writing, via the ever classic, supposedly-sincere handwritten apology. But this apology was too vague for me and did nothing to confirm which exactly were the legitimate testimonies, and which ones are just there for clout. Or was he silently confirming that all of it were true? Only the parties involved knows and it's up to them whether to open up more in the future. 

The face of disappointment

What I do know now is that the River Where the Moon Rises is affected big time. Due to the cinematography and Netflix level of the drama's quality, that it was already 100% pre-made like most Chinese dramas. But apparently they were about to wrap up filming soon, yet the content they've filmed are now useless. Having this kind of scandal to hit the lead actor of a drama being broadcasted on a national TV, it was unsurprising that a hiatus was announced yesterday as the production team finally decided to replace Jisoo and find a way to miraculously edit what they have and save what they can. 

It's a sad turn of events, for the victims to live in normalized silence for so long and for the drama team, for their efforts to be wasted by one single man. It will be a while for River Where the Moon Rises to make a comeback, yet I still look forward to Ondal. It will be a new a face, but at least it will be someone I can empathize easily with without guilt.